Hi and Welcome!
I am so glad you have found me.
If you have found me then maybe that means there is some synchronicity at work in the universe?
If so, I hope that you find something on my page that will make your day a little bit lighter or make you smile.
I am a writer, poet and artist.
Creating this webpage has been a way for me to bring all three creative pursuits together.
Or rather, my insanely talented husband put this webpage together for me!
It has taken me a long while to be able to say that “I am a writer” and “I am an artist”, without cringing! It has been hard to own who I am and to be not only proud of it but able to speak my own truth in front of others, and to not be ashamed or feel like an imposter when doing so. It has taken a lot of work on my emotional self and my inner critic to be comfortable with both accepting praise and also to be able to market myself as a creative amongst so many others who can be insanely talented and at many times more highly skilled than I think that I am.
But I do have a voice, I have both my writing, poetry and now my art as means to express myself and I am passionately excited to be able to have this page as my online voice.
People are like stained – glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.
— Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
I picked up a paint brush in October 2016 for the first time. I realised straight away I had found my passion. I can lose all sense of time when I am painting. It has taken me this last 12 months to find ‘my’ unique creative voice and style. I like painting so many different things that I thought I would never have ‘a style’ but I do.
I use a combination of focused intent, writing, collage, paint, and other mediums to create a layering affect in whatever I create. I love rubbing through and seeing bits of the underneath peaking through. A bit like life. Multiple experiences, and emotions, like layers in a cake over time, make us who we are. Some things can remain hidden, for periods of time, and then at other times bubble to the surface. But all make us who we are. A combination of both external influences and environment as well as our internal world and perceptions. It is what makes each of us unique. But within that uniqueness there are commonality’s to the human experience that unite us all.
I seek to find expression to those experiences and find the common emotional undertones within those experiences that many of us can relate to.
I self published my first book, a memoir, Inside/Outside: One Woman’s Recovery from Abuse and a Religious Cult in 2014.
From that year on my book has become a No 1 best seller on Amazon numerous times within its category and it also won a number of awards that year. I had the ‘idea’ of writing a memoir for many years and had started it and put it away on many occasions. It was not until I had a ‘dream’ that was so real and made such an impression on my psyche that I had to sit up and listen – that I pulled my finger out, finished my book and ended up self publishing it. It got to the stage where it had to be ‘good enough’. Looking back I can see all the areas where I would do it different now, but the prompting from within me, and the urge to ‘get it out there’ was so strong, that I had to just make a decision to release it into the world and let it find its way to whomever was meant to find it and read it.
My motivation was, and always will be, that if it helped even one person not feel so alone or suicidal that might have experienced similar life altering experiences, then my mission was accomplished.
If you would like to read Chaper One I have made it available here as a PDF.
I have always written poetry. But without followng any rules. Given that up until the last 20 years of my life I had always been a rule follower, then this was one area where I never have followed the rules.
I love poetry.
It has been a way for me to express, sort through, understand, or if not understand, at least regurgitate strong passionate feelings that sweep through me and demand to come out in a tangible way. They were always private for just me. Except for the poems where I would pour out my feelings, hopes and dreams for my children.
My children would be recipients of long poems usually on each birthday for many years, and it wasn’t until years after they grew up and I stopped including them in their birthday card, that they protested strongly that that was what they looked forward to the most every year in their card from me, so I had to start doing it again.
Since I started painting I began to realise that I needed to write a poem for each one that I created.
Sometimes they are only one or two lines but mostly they pour out of me unbidden, a torrent of tangled words and strongly felt emotions, from past or present, that relate to whatever I am creating.
Sometimes the poem comes before the painting, but mostly it is during, and sometimes the words find their way through me after it is finished. I keep a pen by my bed as sometimes I wake and the poem is ‘right there’ and other times I am more disciplined and sit and will it to come.
If I don’t capture the poem right after I finish a painting, then it is gone. It is not possible for me to find it again. I cannot explain it any other way.
Anyway, now you know a bit about me. Just a little bit.
I hope you feel comfortable enough to share any thoughts or feelings with me about any of my blog posts, paintings or poetry, and drop me a line by using my Contact Page (top right hand corner of menu).
I would love it if you could leave a review on my Facebook page or send me a photo of any of my artwork displayed in your own home that you would be happy for me to share. I love to see my art in its new home.
I used to feel it was a bit like letting my child go away from me when my painting would leave the house forever, but now it is more like my child gets to go and play with yours!
So that makes me happy.
Please enjoy your time on this page.
I am a hugger so – hugs to all and love xxx ooo
So let us go forward quietly, each on his own path, forever making for the light.
— Vincent Van Gogh
Here is a short video of some of my recent work depicting the theme of ‘transformation’ in many different forms over a lifespan. Most of the paintings come under my recent ‘Layers of Life’ series completed in April 2018.